That's a lot of work just to get a few messages across the world, but I couldn't be more grateful for the 410 Bridge and their dedication to these communities. They have a very special place in my heart.
Go on. I'll wait.
I've been debating with myself for the last few days about whether or not I would write this post. But I've shared so much with you guys already it feels a bit ridiculous to hold back this huge thing that's been taking up most of the space in my head- and my heart- lately.
I've thought about this a hundred different ways, and I still don't really know what I'm talking about. Just humor me. Whatever it is that God wants to accomplish with me could probably be accomplished another way. But I imagine that if I chose another way it would be much more difficult, perhaps even more dangerous, and far more time-consuming. Like "going around your ass to get to your elbow" as my Dad likes to say.
I'm not ready to be a mother. I am frightened of what it means for my identity as a woman, as a wife, as a dreamer. But I'm more frightened of what I will miss out on if I turn and run in the other direction. So even though I'm not ready, I am willing. We are willing. And that's all there is to it.
Last night, we went to trivia again at Rocky Mountain Pizza in the city. The girls were hoping to keep our short winning streak going but, sadly, we lost to the boys (again). It was a tough night, though! Lots of difficult questions, so at least they didn't win easily. That always makes me feel better...and the fact that I knew Canada was the answer for the Native American word for "big village" (Guatamala, boys? Really?) and that the Titanic was the sister ship of the Olympic and the Brittanic (I still can't believe that one was above Pierce's pay grade...he should have known the answer just because he knows me).
"Every day, God invites us on the same kind of adventure. It's not a trip where He sends us a rigid itinerary. He simply invites us. God asks what it is He's made us to love, what captures our attention, what feeds that deep, indescribable need of our souls...and, then, leaning over us He whispers, 'Let's go do THAT together'."