A Day of Fasting

Per a sweet message from an old classmate, I am inspired to write a blog today. All three of you who read this should go thank her ;).

For the last two months there has been some issues at home (not at home with Pierce; rather, in my hometown with family) and I've been praying over them, hoping for some guidance. I was in the kind of place where I wanted change, but only God could bring it. I was doubting, you see. Not doubting in God's abilities, but doubting whether or not He would choose to open hearts. We are given free will. He will not force what He wants upon us. We have to be willing to receive it or we will spend our entire lives looking for fufillment in other things: food, sex, drugs, travel, books, music, fame...etc...I've been praying for open hearts and praying for real, live-giving, God-honoring change. I had no idea if it would be given...I still don't. But I do know that there are choices to be made. God can offer all the help in the universe (and He does) but if we are blind to Him we won't see it. I pray that eyes will be open to truth and to the reality of a life without the Lord. That's what this day was all about: fasting and praying for change for a bunch of different things. I have a family member that I love dearly but, most often, do not trust. I want to...I've always wanted to, but I've only been given the chance to trust this person a few times. I pray that this time of struggle and of uncertainty will be what my family member needs to, as it was written to me, "cling to God always and not just when things are hard." That was a beautiful thing to see.

I was aked by this family member to fast today. Some wonderful things have happened, more than what, as I see now, I believed would. I can't go into detail here, but the issue at hand is practically resolved, pending a few other things tomorrow. So we will cease fasting at 5:00 p.m., but continue to pray through the evening and into the morning. I am thankful that this person thought of me and that we've been able to stand by one another today. It's a link for us that is strong, this mutual prayer, and I am relishing every second.

I'm proud of what we've done together and I feel that God is really spending some time with both of us this afternoon...and I am grateful.

Love, Wendi

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