With My Tears Dried, You Can See My Green Eyes

After having a day off yesterday to visit a family friend in the hospital (no cancer! Praise God!) and go to the viewing for Caleb (desperately heartbreaking), I'm feeling sort of wound up and uncertain. This is the kind of season in life when I need to cling to my Bible and find focus in it, in Jesus, than in myself or in the actions of others. It's so hard, though, because I want so badly to be able to control my own world. Trusting in God is a battle because the devil wants nothing more than for me to fail or, even worse, to believe I've failed and push me to dwell on his lies.

If you feel so inclined, say a little prayer for me. Part of me is rejoicing in the beauty of today, in the sunshine and good books and music, but the other is feeling down and broken. Like my blog says, I'm just a bundle of contradictions. Aren't we all?

All in all, I'm a happy girl, and I've got a cute outfit on today. Little things, I've said that before. Little things make a big difference. Please excuse me if I'm kind of all over the place. I need to be off work to spend some time in the Word and in prayer. I would love to do it right now, sitting at my desk, but with students in and out, and work all around me, it's hard to find a minute for real worship or solitude. Pray that I will find a few moments today to hear Him and respond.

Hope you are all having a wonderful day!

R.I.P. Caleb Keith Dewberry: 8-25-82- 5-2-10


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