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After a terrible week last week, which probably aged me a few years because of self-inflicted worry and stress, I'm almost back to normal today. I am still walking around with a little hurt in my heart, and I don't know when it will go away, but I do know that there are a million other things I could be doing with my time, and a million other people who care, and a million other blessings that this pain cannot diminish. Truthfully, it still sucks.

I read a quote from C.S. Lewis on my friend Jill's facebook status and it talked about God not necessarily wanting to make us happier, but wanting to make us holier. Of course, He doesn't like it when we hurt, but He takes those times to teach us and it's a test of faith. Right now I am learning what it means to be fufilled in my Jesus BEFORE I am fufilled (or not) in my friends and their actions (or lack thereof). I know that this will pass, just as the bad always does, and the good will come again. This is a test of truth, love, and hard work and I am trying to be satisfied in His unwavering character, and not on the unsettled and disregarded feeling I've been carting around inside for the last eight days.

Last night I watched Dear John...love love love that movie! I get so emotionally invested in movies and books so it's nice to get away from the world for a few hours. I try to imagine that if someone else has written it, someone else has felt it, and I am not alone in it.

I am going to go through my closet and clean it out this weekend. I am inspired because I want to get a better handle on my own style and really live it! I love clothes and makeup and girly things...I also love all things vintage. I would totally fit in in NYC, but I would also love to live in sundresses and cutoffs at the beach. I have too many interests! I am (tiny) part small town girl, lover of all things nautical, and crazy about big cities. I want to live in all of those places at least once...I was raised in a small town, living in downtown Atlanta now, so all that's left is the beach! I think once I get there I'll never leave...

Trying to focus at work, but, as you can see, I am not doing so well.

Have a great night!

Wendi

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